My name is
Strangled by her thoughts, but loved her family
“I began to question God, and my faith”
My parents and my husband decided that I needed help so I thought a week at home with my parents would be the best at the time.
It was 5 long years of trying to find the right medication, times when I felt so high I could fly and then times when I felt so low that I was drowning in my own tears. But with everything last breath I had I screamed at the enemy beneath me “I can do all things because Christ gives me strength” over and over I kept saying that verse. I thought I had lost my family and then my husband said: “I am here with you honey, We will get through this together”.
“I’m here with you, we will get through this together”
It was a bright sunny day in Huntsville Ontario as I sat on the sand with my parents, siblings, nieces, nephews and my husband and kids. We were on family vacation. I had just started a new medication, which was my last hope. I remember saying to my doctor “If this doesn’t work I am done with medication”. Let me tell you something, “It was the best decision I had made in a long time”.
As I sit here writing my story I can now look back and say “I am a Survivor”, “I made it”, and “There was a light at the end of the tunnel”. Thanks to Jesus himself, my amazing husband and my best friend, my family and many close friends for sticking with me. I am who I am today because I never gave up I persevered and fought the good fight. Lastly, I just want to say that if any of you who read this are experiencing any of the things I shared please share with someone how you feel. Don’t put yourself in a box, talk to someone. Share your thoughts and emotions with a close friend. You are valuable, important, and beautiful, you have a purpose, a destiny. Most of all God loves you even in your hurt and despair “You Matter”.